June 14, 2012

I Desire

Devin holding our son Noah at 5 weeks old

WOW, it just hit me. Sitting in a Starbucks, enjoying my remade drink (long story), finishing my sandwich and an older woman walks in. By older I mean 40 or so. She's carrying a newborn and my womb leaped. That's right, this, 3 months shy of 40, womb LEAPED! I mean like I wanna find my hubby right now and get to work!

Those who know me, know that we haven't "waited" to have another child by any means. We've been married for 16 years and have only successfully conceived ONE time. That was 10 years ago. The result of that conception is our 9 year old, Noah. He's a miracle. God can do it again. He will! He always gives me the desires of my heart.

Noah and his Dad rooting for the Cardinals recently...

Up until this moment, I didn't know if I desired anymore... Honestly, I just let the desire fade. I had convinced myself that I was done. That actually I needed to be done. 


Well, I now know that's not true. I'm ready for my baby who has been waiting to be wanted, loved, and desired. I desire... I do, I do, I DO!!!


26 comments:

  1. You brought tears to my eyes. I totally understand that feeling. May the desire of your hear be fulfilled soon.

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  2. Oh yes! YES YES YES. I WILL AGREE WITH YOU FOR THAT. You are the most amazing parents and the entire world would benefit from another Smalley :) Psalm 37:4 baby!

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  3. Oh Gerri! I pray God grants you your wish!

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  4. Oh so beautiful, you deserve every happiness you want for your life and I hope you get to have your baby and hold them and love them. So very happy for you to be on this exciting journey.

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  5. i love you and the smalley men :) i'm in agreement with you babe...your lil girl is on the way. love and hugs!

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  6. Totally understand. My Noah was also my miracle child (common theme?)! My first baby, Cassidy, was too easy to conceive.....I wanted a baby, and 3 months later I was pregnant with her. But Noah, my second, was 5 years in the making....I even had 3 early miscarriages before having him and had all but given up. Even went to fertility specialists who could give me no reason for my infertility. And even with treatments, daily shots, and fertility drugs and their help, I still did not conceive. So, I literally gave up and considered myself lucky to have one child when so many can't have any. I put it in God's hands, and convinced myself that I was done, even though years before I "heard" God give me a solemn promise that he would give me not one but 2 more children in addition to the one I had. So, I knew I had to trust what he had told me even in the face of what seemed like an impossibility that even man could not give me. Believe it or not, 6 months after I had stopped trying....I was pregnant with Noah, my miracle baby, and 1 and a half years later I was pregnant with my third baby, Ireland. God can do what NO man can. What promises has He made you?

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    1. Wow, LaToya! What an amazing story you have! Yes, standing on His promise to me!! ;)

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  7. What a lovely post! You have proof that miracles happen and prayers are granted. So, if it is meant to be... :)

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  8. Oh, I understand that feeling so well! Lovely post. And your boy is very handsome :)

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  9. I agree that you go with the feeling. It's right. Your gut is telling you to see the blessing that may await you. I'm happy for you Gerri!

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  10. Gerri, these are beautiful pictures :) I'm wondering if you and your hubby have "got to work?"! ;o) Sending you love and blessings xx

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  11. wow so cool! good luck with the process!

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  12. i am over here rooting for your baby desire! maybe we'll both get our 'desire' this year! hope so :)
    noah looks so much like your hubby - adorable!!

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    1. Yay!! Thank you. I am hoping with you as well.
      They are two cuties for sure!

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  13. AS a 41 year old woman who had a baby at 39, I say WOOOOHOOOOO. Go for it, my sweet friend. We're getting younger not older.

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