|My tiger lily buds greeting the sun.|
I had no idea why I've been so sleepy and just wanting to be...
The thought of starting a project, working long hours, creating anything new, gives me pause. No, it irritates me.
I was reading wisdom from here today and just came to the realization that I'm burnt out. Well, I should say, I'm in recovery from being burnt out.
I've had so many traumas and stresses in these past few months and now that I'm healthy and I can think clearly, I understand what this physical, mental and emotional responsive state is: exhaustion, true exhaustion linked with the feeling of wanting to just spend loads of time on a quiet, remote island surrounded with paint, cameras and nature...oh and a big fluffy bed to rest in when needed and nourishment, beverage and massage waiting and ready at my beck and call.
My life has been filled with emergencies, including an actual trip to the emergency room and a hospital stay... But, "Life is not meant to be a long emergency." (More wisdom from the above mentioned article)
So yeah, now I know why I've been feeling "off my game". I have more clarity.
Surrendering and going to figure out what this new revelation means for me.
peace, love and light